Journal Entries

Hollywood screenwriters have done a terrible job of portraying Dissociative Identity Disorder, something made more all-the-more disturbing when we consider how obsessed they are by it. When looking at DID through Hollywood’s distorted lens, I see the appeal: the disorder allows for extremes of character development with personal conflict, tormented souls and almost-surreal mysteries, all…

For people suffering from a dissociative disorder, finding professional help is essential, but it can also feel impossible. There are so many hurdles to jump.  The first problem involves finding a professional trained to recognize and support dissociative clients. The teaching of dissociative disorders within professional establishments is severely lacking. I’ve read countless reports of…

Be a good girl, I heard over and over, until it became imprinted like a needle laying lyrics on vinyl. Be well-behaved and self-disciplined; be seen and not heard, and do as you’re told and don’t tell tales. When a child strayed from these expectations, it was normal for loud voices and raised hands to…

Sometimes, it feels like there’s a little girl who lives inside me. At some point during my childhood, I named her Gabby. I don’t know why she has that name or why she has a different name to me, but this isn’t about me. It’s about her: the little girl whose presence I feel heavily…